There is a light and it never goes out

I was hoping to hear the words “you’re good to go” this morning. 

As I was sitting on the hospital bed waiting for the doctor to come and see me I could see my X-ray’d foot on the screen.  I went over to take a look and the image appears a lot worse than the way my foot actually feels.  My foot feels pretty good but, the image is still quite a mess at the fracture point.  There has been significant healing since my last X-rays six weeks ago, which is promising.  Obviously I was hoping to see a fixed foot, but I was actually expecting to see it too.  ‘Hope for the best and expect the worst’, I should of remembered.

The doctor said it’s 50% healed.  I asked him is that 50% of the time to 100%?  Or, does that mean the bone is 50% done and perhaps the second 50% takes less time?  “It’s 50%”

He then said I have another 6 weeks before I’m running.  Then he has the nerve to tell me I didn’t need a screw after all.  I just left instead of explaining to him that the point of getting a screw is to decrease the time to return to running, not simply to eventually heal.

Needless to say the information I got this morning has put a damper on the day.  In general the last few weeks have been good because I’ve been able to improve the quality of x-training as well as the strength of my foot.  And I know the worst is behind me now.  I just have to get my head around not being able to run for longer than I hoped. 

I have an appointment with a specialist tomorrow.  We’ll see what he has to say.  Hopefully better news, but I’ll expect the same.

X-C skiing has been a nice addition to the X-training regime.  It has been cold out.